Denial is a form of repression.
Sometimes, the best thing to do is to accept the situation as it is. It might seem hard at first, but nothing in life comes easy. You have grown and matured over the past couple of years enough to make you realize that life goes on. As life goes on, you will encounter more speed bumps which you will gracefully overcome.
It is time to re-prioritize. That number one slot has to be given to ‘family’ again. In order to reduce your emotional exhaustion, focus on the positive things in life. You miss your family, but shortly you will all be together for the first time in 3 years. Your work is stressful, but it’s not just a job, it’s a career. You hold a lot of weight on your shoulders, stop thinking and release some of it. Problems come and go, don’t let it break you.
No relationship is as important as family.
Life is complicated enough. There’s no need to over-think things. It’s time to let go. Take it one step at a time and just live. No grudges, no hating, no negativity. When things fall apart, pick up the pieces and put them back together. You’ve been through plenty of experiences, some good, some bad, but expect many more to come.
You excel at everything you do.
Your problem lies in emotionally attaching yourself to everything. For your own sanity, detach yourself from the number one thing that is causing your emotional stress. Put back the thick concrete barrier which had protected you all those years. Reclaim the status of being strong, independent and opinionated.
Do not self-destruct.
Continue to express yourself as you always have but reduce the thinking, your thoughts far exceeds your time… Be thankful always… Forgiveness opens new doors…And patience is a virtue…
P.S. Please finish the books you start or don’t start at all (starting with GGM’s “One Hundred Years of Solitude”.
“I swear by my life and my love of it that I will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for mine.” -Atlas Shrugged